Most of us use ‘I’m waiting for God to reveal His calling on my life’ as a means of avoiding action. Did you hear God calling you to sit in front of the television yesterday? Or to go on your last vacation? Or exercise this morning? Probably not, but you still did it. The point isn’t that vacations or exercise are wrong, but that we are quick to rationalize our entertainment and priorities yet are slow to commit to serving God.

I like people with depth, I like people with emotion, I like people with a strong mind, an interesting mind, a twisted mind, and also someone that can make me smile.

So much.

zoeannalise:

I just want to be better.
I want to feel what a free mind is, or what it’s like to wake up without what feels like the weight of every emotion and worry pressed onto me.

Im trying. I’ve changed so much about my life. Im getting help. And some days are brighter now.
But why am I still so hollow?
Where is it my turn to be free?

To My Future Husband:

tomyfuturespouse:

You don’t need to worry about me being a wife who doesn’t like sex; I’ve waited this long you’re gonna be the one tired of it.

We’ll try crazy new things always. I already have a list of ideas ;)

Are you happy?

dollydaydreamdiary:

I had a conversation with somebody very interesting today.

We talked about how there is a difference between pleasure and joy. 

‘Pleasure’, we decided, is a feeling you get when you are satisfied or content with how something has happened. Maybe you got that exam result you were wanting, or perhaps somebody told you that you looked pretty today.  To some extent, pleasure may even be considered selfish. Your conscious mind can tell you that these things are good things, and they temporarily give you a boost. A bit like dark chocolate.

‘Joy’ is a more sustained experience of contentedness. You may not consciously be aware of the exact root of the joy you feel due to a certain event, but you feel joy nonetheless. Joy comes from the subconscious mind. It is far deeper than pleasure, and perhaps more meaningful. One who experiences joy may simultaneously feel fear, anger, pain or a number of other emotions equally. But behind all these conscious emotions, there is an element of satisfaction. For example, a mother giving birth to her newborn child can surely not feel any pleasure from such an intense event, but deep down she feels joy. Her baby is what she wanted ultimately, so a feeling of contentedness can be gained from this, even if pleasure cannot. 

Considering these differences, what makes you happy? 

Let’s be more specific - what gives you a sense of pleasure? And what gives you a feeling of joy? Yes, you may think that what you are doing is providing you with happiness, and so it may be, but when you can acknowledge these differences between your conscious pleasure and your subconscious joy, you may begin to appreciate true happiness.

That is, if you truly want it of course.